Didn't get to have therapy today, like I had hoped, she had to cancel. So now I am just stuck with all these thoughts going on in my head. My eyes burning with tears that I refuse to let fall.
How did I get to this place? A place where I question everything I thought I knew. Even questioning God, which scares me, because I feel like I am not suppose to question Him. But I just don't understand anything right now.
I should rejoice that this month celebrates my 3 years Post-Mercy. And how far I have come since then, but in a lot of ways I feel like I haven't grown at all.
It's just hard...and they only way through it is to seek God, but I feel so unworthy, misunderstood, and ashamed right now,
all I can say is, "Lord, please meet me in this place...please"
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Hey Trinity! I was just catching up on your blog. I am so very sorry about all that you are going through right now. I just got out of a rut similar to this only a month ago. But from what it sounds, you are doing everything you can for your healing. You are in counseling, life groups and you are not giving up. I love you Trin, I know God will get you out of this. God is all-powerful and He made the universe in 7 days, I know and believe He's going to help you. Keep the faith Trin! You are so worth it!
P.S. Can you believe it's been 3 years?!?!
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